my poetry timeline

i started writing poetry in my fist or second year of high school
my first poem of that time period was in the end. and the last was worst enemy
and there was my favorite poem in between all this called for whom the bell tolls
i think i wrote that for some school assignment or somthing. the high school period had 22 poems in all (oh and i was depressed during this time period) then my depression lifted and i couldnt write anymore this was about 2005 or so. but then three years later God gave me the ability to write again in 2008 and in this time period i wrote six poems. starting with can you hear me to today where i wrote some things never change. so thats it i will keep writing more poetry from now on


thanks for reading jon
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sad but true

i spend my days chasing things unreal
never stopping or thinking about how this makes me feel
i know its sad but true but what can i do
ive done all i can in order to heal
but one day i thought "hey what am i doing
i can fix these things to the point where i am healed"
so now i kneeled and prayed " show me somthing real"
and now its not so sad but true

some things never change

moving through my life
trying to figure out the
meaning of it all and if my life
can change for the better
but time and time again
i second guess myself saying
"some things never change"
after saying that so many times
i began to believe the the lie
then someday a voice entered my
mind saying "i can make it change"
once i heard this i didnt know where
it came from or who said it the very
next day my life started to get back on track
i forgot the lie and moved on from that point
on after awhile i figured out who said
"i can make it change" and who said it was God
and fom that point on
i will never be the
same

my favorite snack

my favorite snack of all time is doritos. they are so good. my favorite flavor is salsa but sadly they do not make tham any more. another good flavor was the quest mystry flavor wich is in fact a lime flavor. and another good flavor is the 4 chease flavor(which i am currently eating) well thats it for tonight thank you

my one true passion

i have one true passion and that is photography. i go to a school called meramec community college and they offer a wide range of photo classes. such as photo 1,2,3 color photo 1,2 field photo ( which i am currently taking) portrait photo non-silver (which is the hardest in my opinion) artificial light and well thats about it. i have personally taken all the calsses except portrait and artificial light. but back to m passion i feel like im most happy when im out taking photos with my minolta srt 101 which is a camera from the 70s that my dad gave me. my favourite thing to do is go to a cematary at around 10 o clock at night with my camera a flash light and my shutter release cable and sometimes a model and just paint with light. which is basically taking a flash light illuminating the thing you want to shoot set your camera to bulb ( which means that as long as you hold the shutter button down the shutter stays open for as long as you want) this is my idea of fun.

happy shooting, Jon

i sense a pattern

all the poems that i wrote in high school all seem to have the same theme. darkness, thats it nothing more nothing less. sure the words inside of each poem are different. to be honest i was going through a very dark time in that part of my life. it was like my mind was in a complete and total fog called derpesion. the depresion started when i was about 10 till i was 18 or 19 years old. but it came back when i was 21 but that lasted only for acouple of months. then i was saved and that killed the depresion totally and right now i an totally free and happier than i have ever been!

thank you for reading this Jon

a prayer that all christians should pray

i have been listening to a song called light my way quite alot over the past couple of days. and so while i was listening to that song a thought entered my mind. and basically the thought was a prayer, and that prayer was wont you light my way. and i thought a little more about it and i came to a conclusion. and it was shoudnt all christians should pray this almost every day! becasue chritstians walk through the darkness of life every day. and God is the only one that can light your path through life. so people would you please pray wont you light my way!

light my way

light my way

wandering through the darkness of life

from time to time my mind strays

leading me deeper into the total darkness

its times like this that i cry out

"wont you light my way"

hoping that i will see the

dawn of another day

nurburgring

hey people if you want to know what the nurburgring looks like. just go to youtube.com and type in nurburgring nordschliefe and there are several videos to choose from. plus might i recomend the video where nick heidfeld is driving aroud the track in the bmw f1 car. plus that video is very exciting (well if you are a big racing fan like me that is!) please visit that part of youtube some time soon

new fastest lap time

hey everybody

new fast lap time for you! this time i was driving a #18 super gt nsx which in forza is a r 3 class car. the ghost (basically is a previous fast lap) i was racing was a Porsche 911 gt3 rsr which had a lap time of 7 minutes 39 seconds. but this lap with the nsx i made a 7 minute 37 second lap time. thats all i wanted to tell you see ya later! Jon

history has been made

formula 1 history has been made last Sunday at the Italian gran prix. a 21 year old Sebastian Vettel won poll the day before. the day of the race started out raining which made racing difficult for the other racers. but for sebastian went at it leading the whole race in the end he came out victorious. becoming the youngest to ever win a gran prix.

my favourite tv show

there is a show called Red Dwarf. the show is British so you know its good! the show ran from 1988 to 1999 with a 3 year break somewere in between. the show stars a guy named dave lister who was put into stasis for having a cat named frankenstien. there is also another guy named rimmer who dies in the first episode. in the first episode every crew member on red dwarf dies from a radiation leak. so all thats left on board the ship is the cat who survived in the air ducts and dave lister who suvived only because he was stcuk in stasis. the next episode opens 3 million years into the future the ships computer named holly lets lister out of stasis only to find that rimmer was brougtht back to life as a hologram only to keep lister from losing his mind. after exploring the ship for a while they discover that listers cat evolved into a human looking creature. so thats basically the first couple of episodes. if you have net flix you can watch all of the episodes on the instant view option. there are 8 seasons. thank you for your time

my favourite road racing track

there is a track in Germany called the Nurburgring the track itself is 12.9 miles with an astounding 147 turns. there is a video game called Forza Motor sport 2 that has this track on it. I'm not one to brag but i have broken many of the real world lap times. first before i continue you must know that the way the cars are set up by classes. firrst there are two types of car catagories street cars and race cars. the street cars start at d then work its way up to u. and for the race cars they start at r4 and work their way down to r1. now that you know this i can tell you that for the r1 class i got my time all the way down to 6 minutes 40 seconds. which is 15 seconds off the original lap time of 6 minutes 55 seconds. and in real life the car that was used was a radical sr8. but in the game i used a Audi r8. and for the sport car class of u i used a Pagani Zonda c12 (which is one of my favourite cars) to get a lap time of 7 minutes 1 seconds. well thats enough bragging for one day. also i have one favor of my audience if you have this game and set your own records dont be shy and share them with me

if you are cuurious about my poem titles

hello again

if some of you are curious about some of my poem titles and where they came from. well most of them came from a band called linkin park. while others come from metallica and from As I Lay Dying i will let you have the fun of trying to figure them out!

happy reading
Jon

welcome to my blog

hey whats up my name is Jon

basically what this blog is all about my poetry that was written through my high school career and all the way up to this year. that's all for now!

p.s please tell me what you think of my poetry

Meaningless

Meaningless

Going through life enjoying
all the pleasures of life doing everything
at least once. but all of these things
left me feeling empty. then I realized
that all of this is meaningless
then I decided to put all my efforts
into my work. eventually all my time is spend
working. then in time that this is also
meaningless since I would have no time to
myself. then I devoted all of my effort
into becoming wise, learning all that I
can. but in the end all this did is bring
me pain and sorrow. and this to I found
to be meaningless, and after all these
things that I have done in my life
all amounted to nothing
but then I realized the only
thing that has meaning in this
world is God.

Losing sight

Losing sight

Wondering through life trying
to find things that make me
whole, but finding only emptiness
wherever I go. moving from
person to person trying to find the answer
to what I’ve been searching for only
getting nothing in return
only then did I realize
that all of my efforts
were meaningless
I was losing sight
of the only person
that can fill the void
in my life
and that person is
Jesus.

Pain of Seperation

Pain of Seperation

Life away from you
is like going through hell
and back, trying to find the
piece of mind that makes
life worth living through.
I wait to hear your voice
but instead hear only
silence. the pain of separation
is so unbearable sometimes
that the only thing that gets
me through the pain is the
thought of you taking me away
to a place where you and I
live together in a world where
pain is no more.

can you hear me

can you hear me

sometimes I wonder if I’m all alone
calling out in the darkness “can you hear me”
not sure if anyone can hear me
sitting in the darkness praying that someone’s
there to rescue me from the loneliness
constantly coming out for someone to talk to
to alleviate he pain I feel inside
“can you hear me” I constantly cry out. hoping
that someone will hear me and rescue me from
my self but after years of calling out
praying that the emptiness in me will
be filled God heard my pleas and rescued
me from the darkness in my life
and turned it into light and
never ending hope
and finally someone heard me

worst enemy

worst enemy

I am my worst enemy
slowly tearing myself apart.
I sabotage everything I do,
pushing loved ones away because I’m
blind to their help and advice.
making myself apathetic to the
world thinking “what’s the point nothing’s
going to get any better.” Just believing
that makes me not want to try get
my self from wallowing in my own
bottomless pit of depression and self destruction.
being blind to my own inevitable demise
I just keep walking to my doom that
cannot be stopped. Since I’m doomed
to blindly repeat my mistakes
till the day I die because
I’m afraid of change.

my sanitarium

my sanitarium

trapped in memories past, no where to run no
place to hide. always trying to pull me back
into the painful darkness that once ruled my
mind. always trying to make sense of it all,
but instead of making all things clear, my mind
gets darker by the hour. constantly trying to escape
the Hell that mentally drove me away from all
my comforts broken and battered no place to go
the only thing I have are the few dreams
that keep me from the point of no return…
always searching for a way out, but never
succeeding. always ending back to where I
started. broken, disheartened never willing to go
on. the only thing that keeps me going
on is the hope of seeing the new days
sun and the eternal happiness that
I will have in the end.

for whom the bell tolls

for whom the bell tolls

I was awakened from my restless slumber by bursting shells.
Pushing to prepare for the coming fight. Pushing
head on in to the fight not sure if I’m going
to die or if I’m going to live and fight another
day. Fighting through a town I heard a church
bell ring as if it were a sign to say that
someone might not see the new day’s sun.
“For whom the bell tolls” I thought as I
dodged the sudden hail of bullets that could have
taken my life “I hope the bell didn’t ring
for me because I have a long life to live” I
thought as I ran for cover, only to be greeted
by death it self as a bomb exploded around
me. Knocked to the ground the only thing
was the will to live and the will to survive
the pain tore through me like knife. as I lay
on my back waiting for some one to find me
as I gazed at the sky the only thing I saw was
the flames of bursting shells and the setting
sun. I laughed to myself as I recalled the bell,
in the end the bell did toll for
me

nothing else matters

nothing else matters

I’ve come all this way, working on one
frame of mind. Never accepting thoughts
from others. this plan always worked in
the end, and to me nothing else matters.
the things I’ve accomplished in this state
of mind always worked out in the end,
and nothing else matters. then one day
the Ideals I’ve use all my life was broken
down in an instant. When someone showed
the errors in my way of life. he told me
to turn away from my sinful ways to a
path that leads down the path of righteousness.
this new way of thinking is all I need
and nothing else
matters.

friendship

friendship

people can’t continue on through
life on their own. they would
be broken down in an instant without
a companion to help them, through the
rough times. even when I’m hurt and
limping I would stop and not continue on
my own. instead with a friend I can go on
through the pain and anguish to complete
my tasks in life. friendship is needed to continue
through the dark times in life. many people would
be long gone with out friends to push them on
to the good times in life instead of the
dark times friendship is needed without it
the no man race would be depressed and alone
so keep friendship alive
and make friends instead of enemies.

yours

yours

All the time I walk around this earth
proclaiming one thing over and over again
shouting anywhere I could “I’m your
take me as I am!” I get stopped all
the time by people asking why? I answered
with ease “I do this to get my point across on
no matter how bad off you are God will accept
no matter what you did or what you will do! after
I explain this they either accept it or ignore it
to me it doesn’t matter whether or not to accept
because it’s their choice not mine in the
end So I move on proclaiming my message
“I’m yours, take me as I am!”
I spend my days chasing after things unreal
never stopping or thinking about how this makes me feel
I know it’s sad but true but what can I do
I’ve done all I can in order to heal
but one day I thought “Hey what am I
doing I can fix these things to the point where
I’m healed” so now I kneeled and prayed
“Show me something real.”
and now it’s not so sad but true.

unforgiven

unforgiven
I feel certain pains that people
fight through and take for granted,
but instead I feel the pains of the
sin that weighs me down, all the days
that I walked in darkness thinking I’m
all alone in God’s blind spot. Feeling
the pains of being unforgiven. these
pains I feel keep me down in a state
of darkness, that I can’t break through
until the end of my days. I have these feelings
in the back of my mind. until one day God
broke me down. a feeling of forgiveness
I was forgiven at last!

I don’t care

I don’t care
I don’t really care what people think
of me. they can make fun of what I stand
for. but I don’t really care! they can mock
what I believe in. But hey, so what!
let them have their fun. It makes no difference
to me. and if they put me down so what,
I’ll just climb higher than I was before.
I don’t care if they make fun of the
way I look. Who cares, it’s what’s on in
the inside that counts. I don’t really
care if they make fun of my interests. these are
my interests any ways and not theirs. I am
what I am and that’s what matters and
I don’t really care what they think.

Darkness

Darkness

I’ve been lost in the darkness for most
of my life. trying to find a way into the
light but the hand of night always pulls me
back in. fighting to free myself from the perpetual
darkness that threatens to lock me up for the
rest of my days. I won’t accept this
fate of eternal darkness. I pray day after
day for the sun to come to arrive the darkness
to drive the evil away from me. the darkness
can not claim my spirit and imprison it. I must
find a way to get back into the light before I’m
lost forever. but then I saw something that
may be a way out. a small light, as I walk
closer to it the bigger it grows. then before
I realized where I was going, out of the
darkness and into a blinding light. and I
finally felt a feeling that I haven’t felt
before. a feeling of hope and freedom.

The truth is out there

The truth is out there

The truth is out there. But where can
I find it. I looked high and low.
And yet I couldn’t find it. I traveled
far and wide looking for it. But still
I couldn’t find it. As I walked I asked
I asked people for the truth. But they all
Said the same thing, “Sorry, can’t help.”
Then one day I saw a sign that read
“the truth is here!” and to my surprise
It was a church. I walked inside and then
I saw a man. I asked “can you tell me the
truth?” the man answered “yes I can” then
He explained to me everything I ever wanted
to know and more. And know I know the
truth.

The end is near

The end is near

The end is near. We must
prepare. For the end is near.
We must be prepared for anything.
because we don’t know when the
end is coming. It could be today
or even a thousand years from now.
But still we must be prepared
for the end is near!

The darkness is thinning

The darkness is thinning

The darkness is thinning
I can see a ray of light
coming through the clouds.
I can hear the animals coming
out of their hiding places. For
The darkness is thinning the
strong sun light is pushing
back the evil that lurks in
the darkness. The only reason for
for that is because
the darkness is
thinning.

Alone

Alone

I am alone no one to comfort
me when I’m down I am alone no
one to talk to the only people
around me only want to hurt me
no one to be my friend I’m alone.

Run away

Run away

I must run away from here
away from my troubles. Run far
away from the people who taunt me.
I must run away from here.
I must find a place where I can find
peace. But wherever I fun they follow
with out ever stopping. On and on I
run from my problems. But for some reason
they never let up. I must run away from
here.

Song of hope

Song of hope

I sing as song of of hope
a song that can that can make
every one happy. Even a poor depressed
soul like mine. But alas, the song is
so far away from where I am. But I
do hope the song of hope will come to me soon

There is a God

There is a God

There is a God and there’s no doubt about it and
there are millions of other gods but there is only
one true God. Like the trees of the forest
shout his name in praise. And all the animals in the
world sing “praise the Lord Almighty!” in their own
way. And even the smallest insect is praising it’s
creator. And do you really think that some “big bang”
did all of these beautiful things? I can tell you
for sure there is a God!

Something is out there

Something is out there

There’s something out there. But I can’t find it.
it’s watching every move I make. It knows what
I’m thinking. But how is that possible? There’s
something guiding me through my life, but I don’t
feel anything touching me. My guess is that some
supernatural being that guides me through things like
life, and I now know who the supernatural being is. It’s
God. And now I know what’s out there.

Defeated

Defeated
When I came I was determined to win
my eyes were focused on gold and victory
never did I thought I would be shot before
the battle began victorious I came defeated
I left with no hope of victory but I came
and fought no matter what the odds I fought
with courage and determination but no matter
what I do to win I end up defeated battle after
battle scrape after scrape the results are the same
discouraged disheartened defeated but someday
I will return stranger and more determined than ever
before then I will smite the enemies that dealt
me such a cruel defeat so many times before
with pure vengeance to those that put me down
again and again that will be remembered for
years to come but in the end I will survive and
be victorious in the end.

Some where I belong

Some where I belong
I’ve been moving from place to place
trying to find a place where I feel at home
but day after day moving from place to place and person
to person trying to find my niche but I want
to find a way to heal and a place where I can
feel like myself but alas I can’t find
any place where I can feel at home or
a place that I can call my own but
when I felt that I can’t go on I heard
a voice that told me I can heal the
pain that rages on inside of you and I an
clear the confusion that races your mind then
just after that happened I finally found
somewhere I belong

Run Away

Run Away
I wanna run away to a place where I can
think my own thoughts and feel my own feelings
and a place where truth is real and not a place
where lies run wild I wanna run away to a
place where freedom is everything not oppression
and hate I wanna run away to a place where
I can be me

in the end

In the End
I tried to run away from you
but your mighty hand follow me
to the ends of the earth
and so in the end I come running back to you
even if I make my bed in the center of
the earth your presence is still felt there
and so in the end I come running back to you
even if I hide in the heavens where your long
hand can reach and of all the places
in the world your presence is still felt and in the
end I come running back to you.