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praise the LORD!
today my brother mike was freed from all his sins and bondage. it took a total of 4 hours to get through a lifetime of sin and bondage. but in all things considerd my brother mike is a new man in the Lords eyes!
freedom
freedom
after all these of dismay and pain trying to be free from the that hold me at the point of no return struggling to get to the point of living again clawing my way back to the grace of God from total bondage to complete and total freedom and by the grace of God my chains of bondage are broken
after all these of dismay and pain trying to be free from the that hold me at the point of no return struggling to get to the point of living again clawing my way back to the grace of God from total bondage to complete and total freedom and by the grace of God my chains of bondage are broken
Friday, November 7, 2008
newly discovered poem 2 "ghost"
ghost
i don't really know how or why it happened, but it happened any way. and now I'm cursed to roam the earth till the end of time. in all the countless years that I have been roaming this place, I've seen things come and go, and people being born and people dying. in all these years only one thing has been plaguing my mind is how come I can't be seen or heard. and why i can't share the pains that I've felt over the countless years that i have been alive. among those pains I have experienced is why I have been stuck as a ghost instead of going into the after life. the thing i have learned is how short and difficult life really is. as I look around I see people running about trying to get from one place to the other. Trying to complete their goals before the day is done. the more that I think about it, I began to realize that I'm standing still and the world is moving around me. I guess that a day in their life is a century in mine. I can never really begin to comprehend how hard life is for them. being rejected by others,and ignored. when I was alive I can't remember remember it being that hard. and one thing that really bothers me about their life is being alone. that really strikes me as strange because there are so many people in the world. in all my years of roaming this planet being alone is the thing that I can relate to the most. since everyone that I knew so long ago is dead and gone to the after life that has eluded me for so many years. now the only thing that I need to be freed from this bane that has cursed me for so many years. for the moment I'm not sure that i will ever obtain the goal of my ceaseless wanderings. I think that I will be forever stuck on this barren wasteland of a planet till the end of time.
i don't really know how or why it happened, but it happened any way. and now I'm cursed to roam the earth till the end of time. in all the countless years that I have been roaming this place, I've seen things come and go, and people being born and people dying. in all these years only one thing has been plaguing my mind is how come I can't be seen or heard. and why i can't share the pains that I've felt over the countless years that i have been alive. among those pains I have experienced is why I have been stuck as a ghost instead of going into the after life. the thing i have learned is how short and difficult life really is. as I look around I see people running about trying to get from one place to the other. Trying to complete their goals before the day is done. the more that I think about it, I began to realize that I'm standing still and the world is moving around me. I guess that a day in their life is a century in mine. I can never really begin to comprehend how hard life is for them. being rejected by others,and ignored. when I was alive I can't remember remember it being that hard. and one thing that really bothers me about their life is being alone. that really strikes me as strange because there are so many people in the world. in all my years of roaming this planet being alone is the thing that I can relate to the most. since everyone that I knew so long ago is dead and gone to the after life that has eluded me for so many years. now the only thing that I need to be freed from this bane that has cursed me for so many years. for the moment I'm not sure that i will ever obtain the goal of my ceaseless wanderings. I think that I will be forever stuck on this barren wasteland of a planet till the end of time.
newly discovered poem 1 "have you seen me?"
have you seen me
have you seen me lately? I'm the one you walk past everyday without noticing. I'm the one that talks to you but you do not listen to me. i walk with you every day but you do not acknowledge my presence. I guide your every move and every thought, but you don't thank me for helping you through life. and again i ask have you seen me? I turn you away from the things that may tempt or harm you, but instead you ignore my guidance and do what ever you want. but fortunately I stay with you even though you turn away from me time and time again. and each time you turn away you come back to me. and each time you come back i will be waiting for you with open arms.
(now that look back on this poem now that i am a christian I realize that God was giving me a message to me back when I was depressed in the form of a poem)
have you seen me lately? I'm the one you walk past everyday without noticing. I'm the one that talks to you but you do not listen to me. i walk with you every day but you do not acknowledge my presence. I guide your every move and every thought, but you don't thank me for helping you through life. and again i ask have you seen me? I turn you away from the things that may tempt or harm you, but instead you ignore my guidance and do what ever you want. but fortunately I stay with you even though you turn away from me time and time again. and each time you turn away you come back to me. and each time you come back i will be waiting for you with open arms.
(now that look back on this poem now that i am a christian I realize that God was giving me a message to me back when I was depressed in the form of a poem)
psalm 23 and what it means to me
psalm 23nasb
A Psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd,
I shall not want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside quiet waters.
3 He restores my soul;
He guides me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil, for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You have anointed my head with oil;
My cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
this psalm symbolizes basically what i went through when i did the steps to freedom in Christ
A Psalm of David.
1 The LORD is my shepherd,
I shall not want.
2 He makes me lie down in green pastures;
He leads me beside quiet waters.
3 He restores my soul;
He guides me in the paths of righteousness
For His name’s sake.
4 Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death,
I fear no evil, for You are with me;
Your rod and Your staff, they comfort me.
5 You prepare a table before me in the presence of my enemies;
You have anointed my head with oil;
My cup overflows.
6 Surely goodness and lovingkindness will follow me all the days of my life,
And I will dwell in the house of the LORD forever.
this psalm symbolizes basically what i went through when i did the steps to freedom in Christ
Wednesday, November 5, 2008
Tuesday, November 4, 2008
Monday, November 3, 2008
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Friday, October 10, 2008
my favourite thing to shoot
my favourite thing to shoot of all time is cemeteries! i first got hooked on them when i first took color 2 for my haptic project
(dont ask what it is because i dont know) i decided to shoot a cemetery at night just using a shutter release cable my cameras bulb setting and a flash light and nothing else. then i took photo 2 again as an audit calss so i dedicated the whole class working in a cemetery still using the same methods as before but with a twist i added a model into the mix and that resulted in some of the best work i hav e ever done in my photo careeer. the model was a friend of mine named Marie and she was climbing on the tomb stones in a dress and high heels. and finally at fort kaskaskia where the cemetery wasand where i shot the entire roll of film there. plus as a field trip in my class we will be going to the belfontaine cemetery which i am totally pumped for that trip.
happy shooting in cemeteries Jon
(dont ask what it is because i dont know) i decided to shoot a cemetery at night just using a shutter release cable my cameras bulb setting and a flash light and nothing else. then i took photo 2 again as an audit calss so i dedicated the whole class working in a cemetery still using the same methods as before but with a twist i added a model into the mix and that resulted in some of the best work i hav e ever done in my photo careeer. the model was a friend of mine named Marie and she was climbing on the tomb stones in a dress and high heels. and finally at fort kaskaskia where the cemetery wasand where i shot the entire roll of film there. plus as a field trip in my class we will be going to the belfontaine cemetery which i am totally pumped for that trip.
happy shooting in cemeteries Jon
a new artist that i got a poem title from
if you are wondering where i got the poem title light my way from? i got it from the band called audioslave there just thought you should know Jon
what i have been doing in photo
what i have been doing in photo is field trips to shaw nature reserve and to fort dechatres and fort kaskaskia. shaw naure reserve is a beautifull place with lots of prarie grasses and small ponds and wild flower gardens. i shot 2 rolls of film there on a whole it was alot of fun. and fort dechartres was a walled fort dating back to probably to the 1700s thre wasnt alot to shoot there so i mainly shot shadows and fooled around with my wide angle and my zoom and my usual normal lenses then in the same day we went to fort kaskaskia wich is an earthen fort so again there wasnt alot to shoot there but the redeeming thing for this place was a cemetary that dated back to the 1800s so i ended up shooting a whole roll of film there. i was going crazy there shooting sitting down laying on my stomache doing all kinds of crazy angles so that in itself was a whole lot of fun so for that day i shot 3 and a half rolls of film
so readers happy shooting Jon
so readers happy shooting Jon
how im feeling
i dont know whats going on right now but i feel kinda depressed. for the life of me i cant figure out why that is. maybe God is tring top tell me somthing and i cant quite hear him or what he is saying. maybe its because of this whole jon thing. i dont know what the hell is going on i have no energy to do anything right now which is kindabad since im in clalss right now im supposed to be printing right now. somy brothers and sisters in Christ please pray for me and what im going through right now
thanks for your prayers Jon
thanks for your prayers Jon
my friend
i have a friend named Jon. i have been telling him about my church that i go to. the more i tell him about it the more he bashes it. saying that the church and its members are dangerous and the principles that the church stand for are wrong. so basically what im saying is that im praying to God for guidance on how to handle this situation and for ways to convince jon that my church is the same as any other church in the world but it has a different structure than most churches so my brothers and sisters in christ give me advice in this situation
thanks for your help Jon
thanks for your help Jon
Sunday, October 5, 2008
what kind of christian are you?
every month my church gets together the first or second sunday of every month. today one of our elders named Tery Goodwin talked about whether you are the type of christian that feels like God owes you certain things such as that God shows himslef to you regularly or are you the type that God has done things in your life already and if he doesn't do anything for the rest of your life and be satisfied by that. well in my case God has done some amazing things in my life already. and if he doesn't work in my life any more i wouold still follow and serve him without question. so after you read this post please comment about what type of christian you are.
thanks for reading Jon
thanks for reading Jon
Thursday, September 25, 2008
my poetry timeline
i started writing poetry in my fist or second year of high school
my first poem of that time period was in the end. and the last was worst enemy
and there was my favorite poem in between all this called for whom the bell tolls
i think i wrote that for some school assignment or somthing. the high school period had 22 poems in all (oh and i was depressed during this time period) then my depression lifted and i couldnt write anymore this was about 2005 or so. but then three years later God gave me the ability to write again in 2008 and in this time period i wrote six poems. starting with can you hear me to today where i wrote some things never change. so thats it i will keep writing more poetry from now on
thanks for reading jon
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my first poem of that time period was in the end. and the last was worst enemy
and there was my favorite poem in between all this called for whom the bell tolls
i think i wrote that for some school assignment or somthing. the high school period had 22 poems in all (oh and i was depressed during this time period) then my depression lifted and i couldnt write anymore this was about 2005 or so. but then three years later God gave me the ability to write again in 2008 and in this time period i wrote six poems. starting with can you hear me to today where i wrote some things never change. so thats it i will keep writing more poetry from now on
thanks for reading jon
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sad but true
i spend my days chasing things unreal
never stopping or thinking about how this makes me feel
i know its sad but true but what can i do
ive done all i can in order to heal
but one day i thought "hey what am i doing
i can fix these things to the point where i am healed"
so now i kneeled and prayed " show me somthing real"
and now its not so sad but true
never stopping or thinking about how this makes me feel
i know its sad but true but what can i do
ive done all i can in order to heal
but one day i thought "hey what am i doing
i can fix these things to the point where i am healed"
so now i kneeled and prayed " show me somthing real"
and now its not so sad but true
some things never change
moving through my life
trying to figure out the
meaning of it all and if my life
can change for the better
but time and time again
i second guess myself saying
"some things never change"
after saying that so many times
i began to believe the the lie
then someday a voice entered my
mind saying "i can make it change"
once i heard this i didnt know where
it came from or who said it the very
next day my life started to get back on track
i forgot the lie and moved on from that point
on after awhile i figured out who said
"i can make it change" and who said it was God
and fom that point on
i will never be the
same
trying to figure out the
meaning of it all and if my life
can change for the better
but time and time again
i second guess myself saying
"some things never change"
after saying that so many times
i began to believe the the lie
then someday a voice entered my
mind saying "i can make it change"
once i heard this i didnt know where
it came from or who said it the very
next day my life started to get back on track
i forgot the lie and moved on from that point
on after awhile i figured out who said
"i can make it change" and who said it was God
and fom that point on
i will never be the
same
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
my favorite snack
my favorite snack of all time is doritos. they are so good. my favorite flavor is salsa but sadly they do not make tham any more. another good flavor was the quest mystry flavor wich is in fact a lime flavor. and another good flavor is the 4 chease flavor(which i am currently eating) well thats it for tonight thank you
Friday, September 19, 2008
my one true passion
i have one true passion and that is photography. i go to a school called meramec community college and they offer a wide range of photo classes. such as photo 1,2,3 color photo 1,2 field photo ( which i am currently taking) portrait photo non-silver (which is the hardest in my opinion) artificial light and well thats about it. i have personally taken all the calsses except portrait and artificial light. but back to m passion i feel like im most happy when im out taking photos with my minolta srt 101 which is a camera from the 70s that my dad gave me. my favourite thing to do is go to a cematary at around 10 o clock at night with my camera a flash light and my shutter release cable and sometimes a model and just paint with light. which is basically taking a flash light illuminating the thing you want to shoot set your camera to bulb ( which means that as long as you hold the shutter button down the shutter stays open for as long as you want) this is my idea of fun.
happy shooting, Jon
happy shooting, Jon
i sense a pattern
all the poems that i wrote in high school all seem to have the same theme. darkness, thats it nothing more nothing less. sure the words inside of each poem are different. to be honest i was going through a very dark time in that part of my life. it was like my mind was in a complete and total fog called derpesion. the depresion started when i was about 10 till i was 18 or 19 years old. but it came back when i was 21 but that lasted only for acouple of months. then i was saved and that killed the depresion totally and right now i an totally free and happier than i have ever been!
thank you for reading this Jon
thank you for reading this Jon
a prayer that all christians should pray
i have been listening to a song called light my way quite alot over the past couple of days. and so while i was listening to that song a thought entered my mind. and basically the thought was a prayer, and that prayer was wont you light my way. and i thought a little more about it and i came to a conclusion. and it was shoudnt all christians should pray this almost every day! becasue chritstians walk through the darkness of life every day. and God is the only one that can light your path through life. so people would you please pray wont you light my way!
Thursday, September 18, 2008
light my way
light my way
wandering through the darkness of life
from time to time my mind strays
leading me deeper into the total darkness
its times like this that i cry out
"wont you light my way"
hoping that i will see the
dawn of another day
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
nurburgring
hey people if you want to know what the nurburgring looks like. just go to youtube.com and type in nurburgring nordschliefe and there are several videos to choose from. plus might i recomend the video where nick heidfeld is driving aroud the track in the bmw f1 car. plus that video is very exciting (well if you are a big racing fan like me that is!) please visit that part of youtube some time soon
new fastest lap time
hey everybody
new fast lap time for you! this time i was driving a #18 super gt nsx which in forza is a r 3 class car. the ghost (basically is a previous fast lap) i was racing was a Porsche 911 gt3 rsr which had a lap time of 7 minutes 39 seconds. but this lap with the nsx i made a 7 minute 37 second lap time. thats all i wanted to tell you see ya later! Jon
new fast lap time for you! this time i was driving a #18 super gt nsx which in forza is a r 3 class car. the ghost (basically is a previous fast lap) i was racing was a Porsche 911 gt3 rsr which had a lap time of 7 minutes 39 seconds. but this lap with the nsx i made a 7 minute 37 second lap time. thats all i wanted to tell you see ya later! Jon
history has been made
formula 1 history has been made last Sunday at the Italian gran prix. a 21 year old Sebastian Vettel won poll the day before. the day of the race started out raining which made racing difficult for the other racers. but for sebastian went at it leading the whole race in the end he came out victorious. becoming the youngest to ever win a gran prix.
Saturday, September 13, 2008
my favourite tv show
there is a show called Red Dwarf. the show is British so you know its good! the show ran from 1988 to 1999 with a 3 year break somewere in between. the show stars a guy named dave lister who was put into stasis for having a cat named frankenstien. there is also another guy named rimmer who dies in the first episode. in the first episode every crew member on red dwarf dies from a radiation leak. so all thats left on board the ship is the cat who survived in the air ducts and dave lister who suvived only because he was stcuk in stasis. the next episode opens 3 million years into the future the ships computer named holly lets lister out of stasis only to find that rimmer was brougtht back to life as a hologram only to keep lister from losing his mind. after exploring the ship for a while they discover that listers cat evolved into a human looking creature. so thats basically the first couple of episodes. if you have net flix you can watch all of the episodes on the instant view option. there are 8 seasons. thank you for your time
Friday, September 12, 2008
my favourite road racing track
there is a track in Germany called the Nurburgring the track itself is 12.9 miles with an astounding 147 turns. there is a video game called Forza Motor sport 2 that has this track on it. I'm not one to brag but i have broken many of the real world lap times. first before i continue you must know that the way the cars are set up by classes. firrst there are two types of car catagories street cars and race cars. the street cars start at d then work its way up to u. and for the race cars they start at r4 and work their way down to r1. now that you know this i can tell you that for the r1 class i got my time all the way down to 6 minutes 40 seconds. which is 15 seconds off the original lap time of 6 minutes 55 seconds. and in real life the car that was used was a radical sr8. but in the game i used a Audi r8. and for the sport car class of u i used a Pagani Zonda c12 (which is one of my favourite cars) to get a lap time of 7 minutes 1 seconds. well thats enough bragging for one day. also i have one favor of my audience if you have this game and set your own records dont be shy and share them with me
if you are cuurious about my poem titles
hello again
if some of you are curious about some of my poem titles and where they came from. well most of them came from a band called linkin park. while others come from metallica and from As I Lay Dying i will let you have the fun of trying to figure them out!
happy reading
Jon
if some of you are curious about some of my poem titles and where they came from. well most of them came from a band called linkin park. while others come from metallica and from As I Lay Dying i will let you have the fun of trying to figure them out!
happy reading
Jon
welcome to my blog
hey whats up my name is Jon
basically what this blog is all about my poetry that was written through my high school career and all the way up to this year. that's all for now!
p.s please tell me what you think of my poetry
basically what this blog is all about my poetry that was written through my high school career and all the way up to this year. that's all for now!
p.s please tell me what you think of my poetry
Meaningless
Meaningless
Going through life enjoying
all the pleasures of life doing everything
at least once. but all of these things
left me feeling empty. then I realized
that all of this is meaningless
then I decided to put all my efforts
into my work. eventually all my time is spend
working. then in time that this is also
meaningless since I would have no time to
myself. then I devoted all of my effort
into becoming wise, learning all that I
can. but in the end all this did is bring
me pain and sorrow. and this to I found
to be meaningless, and after all these
things that I have done in my life
all amounted to nothing
but then I realized the only
thing that has meaning in this
world is God.
Losing sight
Losing sight
Wondering through life trying
to find things that make me
whole, but finding only emptiness
wherever I go. moving from
person to person trying to find the answer
to what I’ve been searching for only
getting nothing in return
only then did I realize
that all of my efforts
were meaningless
I was losing sight
of the only person
that can fill the void
in my life
and that person is
Jesus.
Pain of Seperation
Pain of Seperation
Life away from you
is like going through hell
and back, trying to find the
piece of mind that makes
life worth living through.
I wait to hear your voice
but instead hear only
silence. the pain of separation
is so unbearable sometimes
that the only thing that gets
me through the pain is the
thought of you taking me away
to a place where you and I
live together in a world where
pain is no more.
can you hear me
can you hear me
sometimes I wonder if I’m all alone
calling out in the darkness “can you hear me”
not sure if anyone can hear me
sitting in the darkness praying that someone’s
there to rescue me from the loneliness
constantly coming out for someone to talk to
to alleviate he pain I feel inside
“can you hear me” I constantly cry out. hoping
that someone will hear me and rescue me from
my self but after years of calling out
praying that the emptiness in me will
be filled God heard my pleas and rescued
me from the darkness in my life
and turned it into light and
never ending hope
and finally someone heard me
worst enemy
worst enemy
I am my worst enemy
slowly tearing myself apart.
I sabotage everything I do,
pushing loved ones away because I’m
blind to their help and advice.
making myself apathetic to the
world thinking “what’s the point nothing’s
going to get any better.” Just believing
that makes me not want to try get
my self from wallowing in my own
bottomless pit of depression and self destruction.
being blind to my own inevitable demise
I just keep walking to my doom that
cannot be stopped. Since I’m doomed
to blindly repeat my mistakes
till the day I die because
I’m afraid of change.
my sanitarium
my sanitarium
trapped in memories past, no where to run no
place to hide. always trying to pull me back
into the painful darkness that once ruled my
mind. always trying to make sense of it all,
but instead of making all things clear, my mind
gets darker by the hour. constantly trying to escape
the Hell that mentally drove me away from all
my comforts broken and battered no place to go
the only thing I have are the few dreams
that keep me from the point of no return…
always searching for a way out, but never
succeeding. always ending back to where I
started. broken, disheartened never willing to go
on. the only thing that keeps me going
on is the hope of seeing the new days
sun and the eternal happiness that
I will have in the end.
for whom the bell tolls
for whom the bell tolls
I was awakened from my restless slumber by bursting shells.
Pushing to prepare for the coming fight. Pushing
head on in to the fight not sure if I’m going
to die or if I’m going to live and fight another
day. Fighting through a town I heard a church
bell ring as if it were a sign to say that
someone might not see the new day’s sun.
“For whom the bell tolls” I thought as I
dodged the sudden hail of bullets that could have
taken my life “I hope the bell didn’t ring
for me because I have a long life to live” I
thought as I ran for cover, only to be greeted
by death it self as a bomb exploded around
me. Knocked to the ground the only thing
was the will to live and the will to survive
the pain tore through me like knife. as I lay
on my back waiting for some one to find me
as I gazed at the sky the only thing I saw was
the flames of bursting shells and the setting
sun. I laughed to myself as I recalled the bell,
in the end the bell did toll for
me
nothing else matters
nothing else matters
I’ve come all this way, working on one
frame of mind. Never accepting thoughts
from others. this plan always worked in
the end, and to me nothing else matters.
the things I’ve accomplished in this state
of mind always worked out in the end,
and nothing else matters. then one day
the Ideals I’ve use all my life was broken
down in an instant. When someone showed
the errors in my way of life. he told me
to turn away from my sinful ways to a
path that leads down the path of righteousness.
this new way of thinking is all I need
and nothing else
matters.
friendship
friendship
people can’t continue on through
life on their own. they would
be broken down in an instant without
a companion to help them, through the
rough times. even when I’m hurt and
limping I would stop and not continue on
my own. instead with a friend I can go on
through the pain and anguish to complete
my tasks in life. friendship is needed to continue
through the dark times in life. many people would
be long gone with out friends to push them on
to the good times in life instead of the
dark times friendship is needed without it
the no man race would be depressed and alone
so keep friendship alive
and make friends instead of enemies.
yours
yours
All the time I walk around this earth
proclaiming one thing over and over again
shouting anywhere I could “I’m your
take me as I am!” I get stopped all
the time by people asking why? I answered
with ease “I do this to get my point across on
no matter how bad off you are God will accept
no matter what you did or what you will do! after
I explain this they either accept it or ignore it
to me it doesn’t matter whether or not to accept
because it’s their choice not mine in the
end So I move on proclaiming my message
“I’m yours, take me as I am!”
I spend my days chasing after things unreal
never stopping or thinking about how this makes me feel
I know it’s sad but true but what can I do
I’ve done all I can in order to heal
but one day I thought “Hey what am I
doing I can fix these things to the point where
I’m healed” so now I kneeled and prayed
“Show me something real.”
and now it’s not so sad but true.
unforgiven
unforgiven
I feel certain pains that people
fight through and take for granted,
but instead I feel the pains of the
sin that weighs me down, all the days
that I walked in darkness thinking I’m
all alone in God’s blind spot. Feeling
the pains of being unforgiven. these
pains I feel keep me down in a state
of darkness, that I can’t break through
until the end of my days. I have these feelings
in the back of my mind. until one day God
broke me down. a feeling of forgiveness
I was forgiven at last!
I feel certain pains that people
fight through and take for granted,
but instead I feel the pains of the
sin that weighs me down, all the days
that I walked in darkness thinking I’m
all alone in God’s blind spot. Feeling
the pains of being unforgiven. these
pains I feel keep me down in a state
of darkness, that I can’t break through
until the end of my days. I have these feelings
in the back of my mind. until one day God
broke me down. a feeling of forgiveness
I was forgiven at last!
I don’t care
I don’t care
I don’t really care what people think
of me. they can make fun of what I stand
for. but I don’t really care! they can mock
what I believe in. But hey, so what!
let them have their fun. It makes no difference
to me. and if they put me down so what,
I’ll just climb higher than I was before.
I don’t care if they make fun of the
way I look. Who cares, it’s what’s on in
the inside that counts. I don’t really
care if they make fun of my interests. these are
my interests any ways and not theirs. I am
what I am and that’s what matters and
I don’t really care what they think.
I don’t really care what people think
of me. they can make fun of what I stand
for. but I don’t really care! they can mock
what I believe in. But hey, so what!
let them have their fun. It makes no difference
to me. and if they put me down so what,
I’ll just climb higher than I was before.
I don’t care if they make fun of the
way I look. Who cares, it’s what’s on in
the inside that counts. I don’t really
care if they make fun of my interests. these are
my interests any ways and not theirs. I am
what I am and that’s what matters and
I don’t really care what they think.
Darkness
Darkness
I’ve been lost in the darkness for most
of my life. trying to find a way into the
light but the hand of night always pulls me
back in. fighting to free myself from the perpetual
darkness that threatens to lock me up for the
rest of my days. I won’t accept this
fate of eternal darkness. I pray day after
day for the sun to come to arrive the darkness
to drive the evil away from me. the darkness
can not claim my spirit and imprison it. I must
find a way to get back into the light before I’m
lost forever. but then I saw something that
may be a way out. a small light, as I walk
closer to it the bigger it grows. then before
I realized where I was going, out of the
darkness and into a blinding light. and I
finally felt a feeling that I haven’t felt
before. a feeling of hope and freedom.
The truth is out there
The truth is out there
The truth is out there. But where can
I find it. I looked high and low.
And yet I couldn’t find it. I traveled
far and wide looking for it. But still
I couldn’t find it. As I walked I asked
I asked people for the truth. But they all
Said the same thing, “Sorry, can’t help.”
Then one day I saw a sign that read
“the truth is here!” and to my surprise
It was a church. I walked inside and then
I saw a man. I asked “can you tell me the
truth?” the man answered “yes I can” then
He explained to me everything I ever wanted
to know and more. And know I know the
truth.
The end is near
The end is near
The end is near. We must
prepare. For the end is near.
We must be prepared for anything.
because we don’t know when the
end is coming. It could be today
or even a thousand years from now.
But still we must be prepared
for the end is near!
The darkness is thinning
The darkness is thinning
The darkness is thinning
I can see a ray of light
coming through the clouds.
I can hear the animals coming
out of their hiding places. For
The darkness is thinning the
strong sun light is pushing
back the evil that lurks in
the darkness. The only reason for
for that is because
the darkness is
thinning.
Alone
Alone
I am alone no one to comfort
me when I’m down I am alone no
one to talk to the only people
around me only want to hurt me
no one to be my friend I’m alone.
Run away
Run away
I must run away from here
away from my troubles. Run far
away from the people who taunt me.
I must run away from here.
I must find a place where I can find
peace. But wherever I fun they follow
with out ever stopping. On and on I
run from my problems. But for some reason
they never let up. I must run away from
here.
Song of hope
Song of hope
I sing as song of of hope
a song that can that can make
every one happy. Even a poor depressed
soul like mine. But alas, the song is
so far away from where I am. But I
do hope the song of hope will come to me soon
There is a God
There is a God
There is a God and there’s no doubt about it and
there are millions of other gods but there is only
one true God. Like the trees of the forest
shout his name in praise. And all the animals in the
world sing “praise the Lord Almighty!” in their own
way. And even the smallest insect is praising it’s
creator. And do you really think that some “big bang”
did all of these beautiful things? I can tell you
for sure there is a God!
Something is out there
Something is out there
There’s something out there. But I can’t find it.
it’s watching every move I make. It knows what
I’m thinking. But how is that possible? There’s
something guiding me through my life, but I don’t
feel anything touching me. My guess is that some
supernatural being that guides me through things like
life, and I now know who the supernatural being is. It’s
God. And now I know what’s out there.
Defeated
Defeated
When I came I was determined to win
my eyes were focused on gold and victory
never did I thought I would be shot before
the battle began victorious I came defeated
I left with no hope of victory but I came
and fought no matter what the odds I fought
with courage and determination but no matter
what I do to win I end up defeated battle after
battle scrape after scrape the results are the same
discouraged disheartened defeated but someday
I will return stranger and more determined than ever
before then I will smite the enemies that dealt
me such a cruel defeat so many times before
with pure vengeance to those that put me down
again and again that will be remembered for
years to come but in the end I will survive and
be victorious in the end.
When I came I was determined to win
my eyes were focused on gold and victory
never did I thought I would be shot before
the battle began victorious I came defeated
I left with no hope of victory but I came
and fought no matter what the odds I fought
with courage and determination but no matter
what I do to win I end up defeated battle after
battle scrape after scrape the results are the same
discouraged disheartened defeated but someday
I will return stranger and more determined than ever
before then I will smite the enemies that dealt
me such a cruel defeat so many times before
with pure vengeance to those that put me down
again and again that will be remembered for
years to come but in the end I will survive and
be victorious in the end.
Some where I belong
Some where I belong
I’ve been moving from place to place
trying to find a place where I feel at home
but day after day moving from place to place and person
to person trying to find my niche but I want
to find a way to heal and a place where I can
feel like myself but alas I can’t find
any place where I can feel at home or
a place that I can call my own but
when I felt that I can’t go on I heard
a voice that told me I can heal the
pain that rages on inside of you and I an
clear the confusion that races your mind then
just after that happened I finally found
somewhere I belong
I’ve been moving from place to place
trying to find a place where I feel at home
but day after day moving from place to place and person
to person trying to find my niche but I want
to find a way to heal and a place where I can
feel like myself but alas I can’t find
any place where I can feel at home or
a place that I can call my own but
when I felt that I can’t go on I heard
a voice that told me I can heal the
pain that rages on inside of you and I an
clear the confusion that races your mind then
just after that happened I finally found
somewhere I belong
Run Away
Run Away
I wanna run away to a place where I can
think my own thoughts and feel my own feelings
and a place where truth is real and not a place
where lies run wild I wanna run away to a
place where freedom is everything not oppression
and hate I wanna run away to a place where
I can be me
in the end
In the End
I tried to run away from you
but your mighty hand follow me
to the ends of the earth
and so in the end I come running back to you
even if I make my bed in the center of
the earth your presence is still felt there
and so in the end I come running back to you
even if I hide in the heavens where your long
hand can reach and of all the places
in the world your presence is still felt and in the
end I come running back to you.
I tried to run away from you
but your mighty hand follow me
to the ends of the earth
and so in the end I come running back to you
even if I make my bed in the center of
the earth your presence is still felt there
and so in the end I come running back to you
even if I hide in the heavens where your long
hand can reach and of all the places
in the world your presence is still felt and in the
end I come running back to you.
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